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2008-09-19T16:17:00.005+08:00

Just back from my bowler's club chalet

For the first time I drank 40% Vodka

And it's Smirnoff, it smelled so pure just like normal alcohol in chemistry labs

Drank down 24 caps and off I went

Drunk for the first time in my life

Totally doing things that I would never have expected me to do

Just loosing myself for that moment and expressed almost everything out

I still rmb I ended up expressing all the deepest things kept in my heart

I even teared after the whole thing

I hate problems

Hope everything will just go away once and forall

2008-09-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

I feel so helpless

I achieved one goal but not another

2008-09-13T09:24:00.003+08:00

Why do i keep reminiscing about the damn past, dang it really

I just can't seem to get over it despite that it happened 1 year ago

Woke up got nothing to do, decided to open my drawer after so long

I slowly took out the 7 letters and black box which you gave me during our r/s last year

Read them 1 by 1, and then telling myself why didn't i just treasure you back then

I'm still waiting for you to update my small black notebook for me

And no, I didn't tear those pages away

Thinking back now, I must be damn silly back then

Sigh, your heart's with another guy

What can I do then?

I don't know, someone just help me please

2008-08-27T05:07:00.002+08:00

Exam Status: 2 Down, 2 To Go

Counting down to AOC paper in 9 hours time. Time flies, after AOC, I'll be left with PCCC only! Then holiday! YESH! :D

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Anw, exams aside, been feeling very f-uped knowing politics stuff going on around me

What things will change and it changes for a reason

And especially when you know how scheming can a person get

Being cunning and wearing a sheep's skin on the outlook

All these stuff, not many can see but I'm sure once you see it

You'll definitely understand what happens

At times I even feel I shouldn't be there in the first place

But I worked so hard for it, there's no way to give up definitely

Very disappointed in some friends. Sigh

2008-08-24T22:12:00.009+08:00

Hmm, a very big thank you to those who wished me today no matter at 12am sharp or during the day, really appreciate it alot!

This year must be the year that I have the most birthday wishes from friends and family!

Thanks to: (Not in order of time)

- Sheena
- Kexin
- Meiqi
- Joshua
- Jonathan
- Jingqi
- Yijun
- Wenling
- Fengling
- Sebestian
- Nicholas
- Louis
- Michelle
- Ferinna
- Juleen
- Sihui
- Huimin
- Donric
- Elisha
- Zulaiha
- Xuliang
- Joe
- Khazrol
- Raina
- Devnath
- Sylvia
- Jiajun
- Derrick (SPIM)
- Weiliang
- Melissa
- Devnath
- & Family!

Thank you all people!

Thank Huimin for spending that effort to thought of wishing me at 8.24am today, haha :)

Thanks Meiqi & Wenling for putting it up on your blogs!

Really happy today even though i spent my day mahjonging with Firdhaus,
Derrick and Lynal in the middle of the night like 5.15am to 9.30am.

Guess we all weren't in the right state of mind.

Then still got 3 more exam papers to go! CMON, get over with this and I'm FREE :D

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Now I suddenly believe in Karma

Do something sinful & I'll think you'll get it back someday

Let's not do something bad

2008-08-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

ICP is finally over.

Hope I'll definitely pass and get over with it once and forall

And my life will no longer have ICP in existance

1 MORE DAY TO MY 19th BIG DAY! :D

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Suddenly woke up at 5+ am after falling aslp right after 1 day being sleepless due to ICP.

Nothing to do so played battlestations then surf net and now I can't get back to slp -.-

2008-08-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

Just felt like giving up on ICP

But giving it up means repeating it the next semester which suck

Can anyone tell me what to do now!

Tomorrow is the paper!!!!!

:(

2008-08-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

Reading your entries everyday has became a thing that I do daily in my life so far

Don't ask me why because I can't answer you this

Looking at your posts, seeing what you're going through

If only I could tell you how important you are to my life

If only I can show it all to you and hope you see it with your own eyes

If only you know I was true to you back then

I won't feel so terrible all these while already

2008-08-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

It's exactly 11 months now i suppose.

Back then 11 months ago, I remembered how we went our own seperate ways

Then me being persistent enough to kept on pester you for the next few months

Even till now 11 months later I wonder why I can't get you totally off my head

This ponders me greatly even till now.

I wonder how did I became so strong that watching you being together with another guy

And yet I still didn't do anything.

Sigh. I need to get this off my mind.

2008-08-14T02:12:00.002+08:00

I feel like a sinking ship in school now, just like how Titantic sunk years back in 1914.

School life is just so boring.

Science stuff cramming up my brain, taking every single brain cell produced per day.

Cracking my head over indust chem questions, like a fool taking those tests.

Hoping I just wont forward any modules cos I think I'll just be damn disappointed in myself.

2008-08-06T01:40:00.002+08:00

Boo! I'm back with nothing new to say. LOL

School's been the same, everything's the same.

Nothing's changed. ZZ

Oh yah, recently got back the mahjong kick in me, played on Sunday, lost $18 -.-

BUT! Played on Monday again, won $27! WOO!

Then go training and waiting for the long anticipated announcement of the school team but to my disappointment that I nv see Donric's name inside and I saw how sad he was but I just didn't know how to console him.

So YES! I'm in the school team for bowling 08/09!

I've finally achieved my goal! :D

2008-07-29T02:08:00.002+08:00

Argh, warning letters. Just hate to see them appearing in my email.

Exams are approaching closer and closer, just afraid of facing them now, I just got no confidence in what I'm studying this semester, it's like I lost interest in Chemical process already.

Through this 2 and a half years into the course, I start to feel this is just not the path I'm going to take in future when I enter work life because it's just not me and what I usually like to do.

Maybe it's because of science that influenced me during secondary school that made me choose DCP and other science courses for my choices during my JAE application 2 years+ back.

I just got no choice but to continue now and get my diploma, I wished I realise I wanted to study things on animation, IT, maths.

Lecturers will think I just wanna skip classes but I lost the will to just say go to school happily and attend lessons anymore because they don't interest me anymore and I just go school blindly now because I have to attend school.

Just another few more months that I have to endure before I'm done with all these chiminology science stuff that make me hate them more and more.

Had bowling training today again with the other male bowlers that are being called down to have a training based on our roll-off results. Talk to Helmi and changed my release and timing today and I just have to keep practicing that if I wanna make it accurate.! Side roll baby! :D

That's all about today.

2008-07-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

Ytd, last day of MQ for both youth and graded:

My heart nearly popped out when firdhaus, dalbert, colin and donric were bowling so well.

Well the bowling ball is round and certain things will tend to go the way you don't want it to go.

I ended up qualifying for the masters but I played badly during the masters.

Well, throughout the masters, hunger started kicking in and then i couldn't focus on my shots and when I couldn't take it anymore, I went to order food!

When the food came, I just literally ate like a hungry ghost. LOL

Anw, feels damn tired now with all the muscle ache + thumb swell problems.

2008-07-24T00:50:00.001+08:00

Feeling feverish now, just somehow i don't feel well.

Went to sch today for my gems practical and handed up my Indust chem report which I owe Dr Lim then after that accompanied Josh to Uncle Richard's shop where he drilled his new black widow venom, it just looks gorgeous to me.

It took quite some time, around 3-4 hours for the whole process with very detailed explaination from Uncle Richard himself then went back to Spgg where my bag was then attempted another MQ for graded hoping to secure a place for finals however luck was not on my side again.

Bowled a 4 game series of 706 pinfalls: 181,174,177,174 game series.

Just lack of a high game which could have brought my game up, just lack of that.

Placed 7th position overall, top 10 will proceed to master's finals and now I'm gonna retry until I get in though because I feel very confident of my bowling this time.

2008-07-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

Recieved a piece of shocking news during pccc practical lesson ytd.

Mrs yeo approached me and asked: "Stanley, why your attendance for my module so poor!"

I went like huh? "how much % now?"

She replied "You come see yourself"

And i saw myself 68.25%, that's like impossible

She even remember that i dont always skip her lessons or wad neither do i rmb skipping miss tong's lessons that much either.

Now means i'm going to get a pass/fail grade for pccc, great! FOR NOTHING, heaven's just playing a joke on me seriously. Unless i can give her a good reason to prove my attendance then I'll be able to get grades else I just have to suck thumb and bear with the attendance system nonsense which nearly debarred me for NOTHING.

Utter Crap seriously. Now I'm worried sick for my grades this semester.

Indust Chem still in a mess, find Dr Lim talking more about alien stuffs than teaching, Dr Cheng's part more reasonable as it's just read and understand and memorise.

AOC also same, Retrosynthesis! ZZZZZOMGGGGGGGG.

Anw put that aside, after 3 attempts for graded MQ,

Shot a total of 703 pinfalls for 4 games = 175 average for each game and I'm still not in a safe position for masters this coming Sunday.

Was thinking about giving up Youth category already since this year is very much competitive and the prize money isn't that attractive either as compared to graded category.

I swear to kick Elisha's butt in graded masters! HAHAHAHA

For that $250! I will make sure my name is up there plus money in my pocket.

Now attending training with 11 other guys for the school team, will definitely prove myself capable to play for SP team this year, worked so hard just to prove myself during selections already!

Blog again another day, darn tired after chionging the ICP report.

2008-07-20T01:49:00.001+08:00

Just came back from SPGG Annual Bowling Championships.

Damn sian, attempted 4 Master Qualifyer for all 3 category,

Ended up my best is just a 165 average on 4 games.

Ball goes to pocket but just doesn't seem to carry as well as others.

My strike percentage damn low, can spare cannot strike in MQ is no use one.

Over the next few days will try again but think when I feel I will do it then I go attempt liao.

2008-07-18T02:19:00.002+08:00

Back from Colleagiate league this week at Hometeam NS Cdans against NUS Team 2.

Think overall i won 3 points and lost 1 because of handicap, kinda wasted but nvm.

Average went up again woo!

Now it's 178 scratch average based on today's 3 games and 190 average with handicap added!

Made my overall average to 170.8 currently in the colleagiate league!

Gonna work hard and train hard since selections is over and looking forward to being in the school team now! YEAH! :D

2008-07-15T23:59:00.003+08:00

Back from school team selections based on 12 game series:

Ytd was short oiling pattern:

Bowled: 164,175,162,158,165,178
Average: 167

Today's block of 6 games, long oiling pattern:
Bowled: 164,175,188,200,190,156
Average:178.833

Overall average for 12 games: 172.9

Damn happy now, overall I came in 6th among 26 other bowlers attending the selections, and hoping to get handpicked now. Really bowled above my expectations for today! :D

Grats to Jonathan, Derrick, Louis and Firdhaus for top 4 and automatically seeded into school team!

2008-07-12T02:09:00.003+08:00

Went to uncle richard's shop earlier on today, learnt alot of stuff which i used to have no clue at all.

Think these will greatly help me in future when im planning to get more balls.

Had headaches earlier on again, went to take a nap and wake up then headache kicks in again.

Sigh. Think im not getting enough rest again.

Watching TV now and seeing how filial people can get made me realise at times im not filial to my mum :/

Sometimes shouting back at her when she asks me something.

Guess I should change this.

I envy alot of people who have happy families where they see their parents everyday, have family outings together where i get none of those.

Suddenly feel emo again, sian.

Dad's out to HK or Guangzhou for 3/4 of the year at least, Mum's working at night.

>.>

I'll work hard for my future.

2008-07-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

It's 10 months and still counting,

Just when I thought I have gotten over it

The fact is I didn't, sigh

Whenever I see you I just feel lost for that few seconds

Guess time isn't really helping me afterall

I can't imagine seeing you with him one day on the streets

I'm sure the feeling sucks.

Time oh time, I think I need more of you right now.

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That's personal problems aside,

School work, another headache.

I think I'm starting to feel I can't catch up already

The modules are soo not right for me

Indust Chem, AOC. Oh boy, I guess I just have to endure through this period >.>

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Bowling selections next week,

Feeling anxious and worried.

Hope I'll keep my composure and bowl to my best :D

2008-07-02T14:17:00.002+08:00

Gotten back my papers,

PCCC: just passed on the margain,

AOC: Fail, sian - Felt so much like slapping myself in the face for making such careless mistake for the reasonance and the aldol reaction question.

The rest haven get back but i think my IndustChem will fail too. Sigh.

Feeling low now.

2008-06-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hmm,

Woke up around 3pm yesterday then headed down to SPGG to meet derrick and went for gym first.

By the time we changed finish, step into the gym then saw Teck Chye getting ready to leave, then he said "You all purposely come when im leaving from work izzit?" LOL

Else confirm he'll make us do all sorts of stunts in the gym, ended up did a 15 min bicycle cycle, cycled 4km before stopping. zz

Then went to do diff things in the gym, lazy to describe all of them.

Next! Off to swimming. LOL

Swim finish then off to soak in the warm water bathe, this time never go steam room or jacuzzi, lazy liao.

Then headed to poolside after bathing and ate dinner, TomYum Seafood fried rice + rice & egg.

Simply delicious: Pictures

Then headed off to bowling alley to bowl, trained on my C hook then played games using PBA bowler's name. Quite lame, ended up i spoilt Parker's and Weber's reputation.

Then did some lame stuff in the alley, have to upload into youtube before i'll post.!

2008-06-28T03:30:00.002+08:00

YES, MST IS OVER!

Finally, just totally not used to this exam mood feeling in the middle of the semester.

Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best :X

Anw today went to bowl after my MST and seriously just bowled damn badly.

Then after that went to clementi to have dinner with derrick then went home.

99 Took damn long to come. Near 1 hours of waiting and at every bus stop got tons of people that
will squeeze to board the bus -_-

Feel aslp on the bus cos damn tired, then reached home and saw my nephew just came with my cousin.

Man, he's damn cute :D

After that chatted on msn then called meiqi and chatted and after putting down i realised i talked nearly 4 hours! Wow, didn't know it was that long though, didnt felt it, haha.

That's all for today!

2008-06-27T02:04:00.002+08:00

Back from colleagiate league today held at cdans at bukit batok.

Tiring, although we won 20-0 against meridian.

My average was lower than that compared to last week but my combined scratch average is 161.185 which means my handicap gone up to 12 pins! 2 more pins, haha!

Will try harder to improve on my mistakes still :/

Mst:

4 papers down, 1 to go. cGMP.

Still in the holiday mood, dont feel like returning back to normal school life.

After MST, tons of workload it gonna come once again! Sigh :/

For Bowling:
Will it be a hint to me somehow?

I certainly hope that i'll be able to prove it to myself and everyone that my determination and effort put in will help me achieve my target when i set it in March.

To win others, the greatest enemy lies within ourselves.

2008-06-25T00:50:00.003+08:00

I passed up my Indust chem paper yesterday knowing I was either going to just make the mark or fail.

That paper is HOLY SHIT.

When i first received it, flipped to MCQ then do

Wah, Quite shuang, like very easy.

Wait till i turn to short questions, 8 questions - 80 marks!

I think my facial expressions went like O_O

I started to skip alot of em and i turned around, most were like scratching their head also.

Guess Dr Lim wants to just chop us all.

And for today's Laboratory Management module, not bad.

Won't fail is all i can say :D

Shucks, Advance Organic Chemistry tomorrow -.-

ZZ.

Some pics of bowling ytd and i realise my finish is weird. LOL

My swing is finally getting higher :D

2008-06-22T22:33:00.003+08:00

Argh, put aside Euro 08 rantings for now:

Thanks to meiqi who's been urging me to blog about NAG last week.

Oh man, thanks to myself for acting smart, decided to loft the ball which till now i still can't figure it out why i did that on the 1st 2 days of NAG..

Maybe durnig practice throw i loft then i found it'll work but end up it still proves it's not accurate.

3rd day, doubles event was supposed to roll it but i managed to roll it but still abit of "giao" the ball.

Finally last day then i got back my normal roll, i nearly screwed my bowling just because of this competition.

Overall, it was a nice experience for me, first time taking part in NAG, lucky i got a friendly team of people beside my lane for all 4 days.

Got to know more people through NAG also like meiqi, ching yee, ching lee and constance.

Luckily for them, i didn't feel bored throughtout that nag session.

That's all, having MST BLUES NOW.

And it's 1.30am and im not done studying yet. CRAP

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2008-06-22T05:25:00.001+08:00

Sigh

Netherlands lost again.

AM so confident it's match fixing looking at the way the match went.

WHY ALWAYS LIKE THAT.

DARN SAD NOW.

2008-06-19T03:31:00.002+08:00

Ytd damn stupid, while setting off from woodlands after settling my white psp.

Then wanted to head to tangs plaza to withdraw money from hsbc atm then deposit into a uob account then remember tanglin mall got according to uob website i checked b4 i left my house.

God knows i walk wrong direction, end up i was along scotts road and went to bus stop to see the map to realise i walked the wrong way. Nvm, cabbed down to tanglin mall to realise only got uob atm machine there. Sianed liao.

Walk out along the way, saw this uob bank branch but it was at tanglin shopping centre INSTEAD. -_-

Full of dots, then NVM,

Deposited money, go to far east plaza now to get another psp. WORST, reached there, go to allocated shop number to realise eh, "why it's a beauty salon?"

Then called my bro to ask him help me double check to realise it's at far east shopping centre which was just 2 buildings away from the tanglin shopping centre.

Full of !$##$#@%^ and ZZZZZness ytd.

2008-06-16T06:15:00.001+08:00

Now its 6plus in the morning and i'm lying on my bed using my psp to blog cos i cant on my com else my cousin will wake up... zz..

All cos of my flu that made me slpless for tonight.. woke up ard 5 to take med then wash my face with warm water then sit on the sofa and rest while watching tv.. now i'm wondering how to bowl tonight like this.. :/

Flu just suck

2008-06-16T02:34:00.002+08:00

14th June:
Oh great, i have these amazing flu + sore throat combo which came just before my nag competition, can't imagine me sniffing my nose every minute while bowling, looks darn gay by then :(

First i had this sore throat on thursday which it just started, i could some sort of feel it by night then nvm, i type wrongly on msn, typed soar instead and then huimin told me my throat can fly i was like huh? o.o?

Then i realised i type wrongly, it's supposed to be sore not soar -.-

Thanks to Fish & Co on friday for that amazing, mouth watering seafood platter for two which i shared with biondi, this made my sore throat worst. by saturday morning i talk also pain. damn it.
Now my cousin and his family just came over to SG on saturday night to check about the school and see whether it's suitable anot.

So 15th June today:

I became his private tour guide, bring him jurong point first -.-

Then off to city hall where i brought him to the esplanade, singapore flyer, marina square then eat sakae before playing pool with him then take cab to newton for a steamboat dinner.

The uncles there talk hell lots of nonsense that made me laugh, but my flu became worst, even till now, i blowing my nose every minute while using the com. damn zzzz.

After that went home and online, that's all.

Nag for next 4 days, hope i score! :D

2008-06-14T04:39:00.007+08:00

Back, haven been posting for quite a few days alr.

Recently these few days, had colleagiate league, trainings, miss koh sihui's birthday dinner.

Colleagiate league up first:
Didn't bowl well, 165.3 average for 3 games. sigh. won 1 point only. Will try harder against meridian JC, hoping to thrash them 20-0.

Trainings:
Sian, something creepy happened that i think now me and joshua also scared of going training liao.

"Sister's" bdae dinner today at fish and co:

To Sihui:
If you read this, you're 20 already! so behave like one alrite! :x
Hope you're happy with the present all of us managed to come up with and do get ur SST fast! I want to see it on ur legs soon. LOL

Finally met gab, been quite some time since i last saw him alr, then after the dinner, he drove to ryan's place at ubi first to collect his bowling ball then to sembawang to take mine and colin's one then back to tiong bahru where he had to drop us off cos he was late to fetch his friend. And gab's driving, ZOMG, i tried it myself today. fastest it went like 160-170km per hour!!! GOSH. but it's damn shiok.

Then poor me and ryan with 9 bowling balls waited for cab along the road and finally after 20 minutes, then cabbed down to GG and bowled 3 games and realise my trifecta is screwed up.

DAMN, now i seriously damn pissed with him. Screw it, i insisted i want that specific drilling and u give me some artistic drilling. ZZZ

That's all, some pics of today:

2008-06-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

Just today, i missed stupid simple spares again. Why?!

Bowled a damn 93 b4 training, face can hide somewhere already.

I feel so F-up over sparing issues during bowling.

Feel so stupid.

2008-05-28T00:09:00.001+08:00

Few more days to my 3 weeks of holiday.

Then to the start of FYP, time to climb hills, just to collect water samples then take back to lab for testing.

These few days been pondering over bowling, should i change this and that? or should i not?

Why i make single pin spares look so difficult when it's just 1 pin left on the lanes, take the ball and shoot it straight towards it. Sian.

MST right after holidays, worst, I dont even think i can enjoy my holidays comfortably.

2008-05-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

Today's my event that is finally over! Response wasn't too bad got 25 people playing for the challenge.

End up winner! Congrats to Derrick, Joshua, Colin and Chorboon!

And Derrick you're gay, 800+ series for 3 games. LOL. Joshua was so near yet so far from being crowned the champion of this challenge, wasted 2 games near perfect game. Oh Yah, from the pics taken, I can conclude, I gained size + weight recently after my attachment. I look so so so fit! LOL

Will upload pics tml cos blogger got some problem with the uploader! :D

2008-05-17T03:04:00.004+08:00

I thought about it damn seriously the last few days.

I told sihui over what i decided, she asked me "Are you sure anot?"

Yah, I'm damn sure what i want now.

Always in my mind there lies this someone that I kept having no balls to approach, guess only sihui knows who I'm refering to. One day I'll definitely pick up courage and do it!

I just need some time to sort everything out, for now studies i guess come first. I'm trying to catch what the lecturers are saying because whatever they speak sometimes i catch no balls also.

I'm like O_O and ask teckyong or brandon they understand anot? At times they also don't. Year 3 liao, really different from year 1 and 2, we have to learn to be more independent because we should know what to do when we're in year 3 already.

Anw, for FYP, went to the stream near NP ytd with Mr Kwok and my 2 other fyp mates, Junlong and Huajia. Hahaha, both of them wore slippers and sandals, heng im smart, shoes + long pants! then walked through the path,

ZOMG, really once in a lifetime EXPERIENCE like what Mr Kwok said. End up I even have to walk through this tunnel like thing with water up till my knee level!!

And poor Junlong, his sandals gave up on him and it went GG inside the water. HAHAHA, he cabbed home bare footed! LOL

Pics!

See this insane guy slping on top of the roof which i saw outside my bowling clubrm!

LOL!

2008-05-14T00:40:00.002+08:00

Seriously, Mrs Tan. I felt like telling you to fuck off early this morning.

I made an effort to come for your 10am class and got traffic jam along the AYE until East Coast that most vehicles took the inside path through Clementi along Commonwealth Avenue end up i was stucked in traffic jam for 15-20 minutes. I came into ur class at 10.25 and when lesson ended you asked all those whom miss attendance taking to come down and mark all EXCEPT MINE.

You literally said, "Stanley, Not I don't want to save you, but you came in the latest and you see your attendance."

Yah, I saw alot of ZEROS but in e past i came late i nv come in lecture hall, i got things on that i have to miss your lessons and now i came late but i came into ur class and you tell me what "Stanley, not i dont want help you but you see urself."

CB, no one said you're a fugging mute if you kept that sentence to yourself. Dont help then, like I'll appreciate your pathetic help now.

Getting on my nerves totally, spoilt my day just like that.

2008-05-11T03:18:00.001+08:00

Been a tiring week for me, 4 days of bowling including training and orientation. Saw many freshies, alot of em seemed interested, hope they'll stay on.

Mother's day coming up but I still haven gotten anything for my mum yet! Guess tomorrow I'll just share a big cake with my brother and cousin and celebrate it with my mum and aunt and owe her a belated mother's day gift..

2008-05-08T01:53:00.001+08:00

Read Yijun's blog on Saturday night , saw that her index finger couldn't touch her pinky then I tried but I can! then I ask Jingqi whether she can anot, she also can. Then, Yijun called us aliens. LOL.

After that lots of things happened in our msn chat, ROFL.

First compare length of fingers, then TOE. Then talk about their secondary sch's friends kukubird -_- . Then i can imagine them looking at their rulers. LOL, Damn funny.

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Had 3 straight days of bowling trainings for this week already considering i had mine on monday and including both ytd and today for the new year 1s who signed up. There's still one more tomorrow, the response we had this time was really good I guess. The best I've seen in my 1 year + in SPB.

Hard work is still something that pays off if effort is really put in I guess. I'll still continue training towards my goal for this year in bowling. POL-ITE

School's been normal, skipped a few lessons. Today heard wad Mrs Tan said, felt damn @#$#$!%!@? <--------- perhaps this is the only thing that can describe my feelings?

I respect u as a lecturer, by not entering ur class when I'm 30 minutes late for your 1 hour lecture and that I have to miss yesterday's one too because I had something on outside school and all you think is I wanna skip your bloody class. I spent at least an effort to ask my classmates if I faced a problem doing tutorial 2, other lecturers I seldom even do tutorials and yet all you know is just said,

"Yah, Stanley so you never do this question? Missing my morning class? So you wanna learn by yourself if you're that good?

Like damn, what was that sentence for in front of the whole class. FCUK. I felt so pissed at that moment that i just kept it within me and left the class immediately after lesson.

2008-05-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

I just realise I've been bowling very very often these few weeks, that my thumb swelled now -_-

Felt so uncomfortable bowling these 2 days already, bowled a damn 60 ytd.. ZZ

Tomorrow's Cosmic fun bowl but the response is bad bad bad! Sigh..

My hands and legs feel so jelly. LOL

I dont want to lose something so easily from my hands. I feel lost once again.

Are my reasons convincing enough?

2008-04-30T00:49:00.000+08:00

Just had a chat with Elisha over bowling matters, find that things she just told me did enlighten me alot.

True that with that Practical mindcept in bowling, I'll never be able to achieve anything. Mental is really important. Hmm, guess i really need to train hard on my mental side now!

Skills are up now! Mental to GO! ROAR!

Anw, must thank Moo for that small convo that I've had with her if not i wont be able to realise this even up till now.

Cca drive was packed with new year 1 students with 95 new peeps who signed up for the club during these first 2 days! tml I'll be on duty and whether it'll break the record mark of 138, we'll see tomorrow. LOL. But training will be another issue if there's so much people. Then had training yesterday with those new year 1s who had past experience in bowling, 2 were really good, nvm that, just continue to train harder :D

OT abit, I did thought about what you told me that night, I didn't really wanna imagine the ending afterall :/

2008-04-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

Had school as usual today, went to GG to bowl with Elisha, then i still rmb me and Elisha were having alot of strikes then the 3 girls beside my lane were like O_O.

Anw, quite happy today, redrilled my thumbhole for my Red Zone and bowled a 220 in oily lane! :D

After that go raffles buy donuts with Sihui, Elisha and Joshua then after that headed to Qisahn to collect Junlong's PSP for him then headed to Joshua's place where he offered to drive us back to SP.

Ok, now this is the part where the horror came, flagged a taxi. before i went in, i grabbed onto the rubber gripping between the door and the body frame of the front door as i went into the cab. Josh, closed the front door that it hit my fingers right ON SPOT.

THAT I LITERALLY WENT DANCING AND LALA-ING INSIDE THE CAB FOR A FEW MINUTES, NO JOKE MAN. I COULD FEEL I'M TEARING. DAMN HIGH

After that cabbed to his place, then he drove us back to GG where we waited for Lester then go have dinner in Clementi then go back GG watch them bowl League then after that had my Red Zone's thumbhole adjusting with a new drilling, very sweet and nice :)

Then Elisha dropped me, Fird and Ryan at Dover MRT then i headed to Clementi to settle bank stuffs for Dad as he's coming back tonight then headed home on 99,

My fingers still hurt quite badly :(

Luckily it's the left hand. Phew.

2008-04-22T00:07:00.000+08:00

Had first bowling training today, bowled a 225, 151..

Pol-ite here i come baby.! SP School Team! :D

Had this bad sorethroat for the past 5-6 days and my throat feels as if a needle is stucked down there :/

Anw, i feel really empty for not talking to her, for both days on Sat and Sun.. I don't know how to even start talking :/

If you happen to read this,

Anything is worth fighting for if you really tell urself this is something that u want. Never let it slip past ur hand just like that, else when the time comes for regret, everything will just be too late.

Whatever i do will result in an ending,
and I hope it's going to be (_______) <------ something that's unsure now.

Sigh. Don't know what to do now also.

2008-04-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

Perhaps I shouldn't have done that

A moment of foolishness will lead to
a path of road that will never turn back

I just wanna

Go on or?

Will you?

2008-04-18T01:28:00.000+08:00

Sian, having a spiltting headache now.. Came all of a sudden, if like that tomorrow may not go back Vopak liao. sian.

Recently, sch started, intro to some lessons, got most of my notes. Tomorrow going to have first SPB comm meeting, sure damn lots of things to discuss about since elisha is back. my BOSS. LOL

I hope everything will be smooth and everything and turn out to be what i wanted it to be

2008-04-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

Went back to company to OT today, Nora came to fetch me from my void deck then went back to the terminal to continue doing voice recording and everything was fine until i decided to take a nap during lunchtime cos i was really tired staring at the computer whole day long just plain editting the video. Then i shifted the files into the server to store it there so that my supervisor can view them too

Then god knows the VEC ( Vapour Emission Control System Video Project File got CORRUPTED). I was like FCUK and panicking and calling Hamzah for help cos for a moment, i literally stoned at my seat starting at the lcd monitor wondering how, it was my 5 weeks worth of hard work and now it just went to nothing? I was like telling Hamzah, if cannot retrieve, think i'll most probably be dead. Ended up informed Nora of the situation and tried to give my supervisor a call but no response, decided monday morning i give him a call to explain the situation and then go back next Friday to complete and redo my video, which means at least 2 more extra days at Vopak. A good thing is i can see my colleagues but bad thing is, i dont know when i can finish it as i have to attend school also. Sigh.

After that went to meet bio and sihui for dinner at Sumo House at clementi then order usual stuffs, then cabbed to GG to bowl and look for dalbert. Was training all along, lanes were dry, couldn't use gravity as too strong.

Then played a 4 game series after bio and sihui left around 11+. Hit a 176 average,
[150, 200, 175, 179!] I'm really determined to fight into the school team this year!

Pic:

Woots, will continue to work hard for bowling. School's starting on Monday, kinda not used to not going attachments liao. But 9 weeks past in a blink of an eye. So fast :(

2008-04-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

Ended my 3rd last day of work

After work, went to get my soft buns for colleagues, hope 30 is enough. then go Royston's place to get Josh's fingertip grips then chatted with some peeps from RP bowling.

Then about 9pm+, heng Keane got car, fetch me to bukit timah then i took 174 home.

Tml's my 2nd last day at work! :(

Anw:

I made myself very clear ytd night and i make sure i can do it, i dont want like the past, say liao end up i still came back. No point anymore. Im not a fool and i will not be one.

Stop thinking i hate you, i wont and will never hate you, cos it's pointless in the first place, i sincerely hope u find ur happiness too and i hope u really heed my advices and not ignore it. He is really not as simple as what u think he is based on my view as a guy. It's totally up to u to accept it or follow ur feelings and go according to what it tells u to then.

I know i will be able to do it this time, put it behind me totally once and forall, never to come back again. I gave my best and i never regretted it in the past. Seems like fate is not helping me that time so it's time to move on with life, concentrate on my bowling so that i can make it into the school team for my last year at SP. I hope after u reading this, u understand my intentions when i told u advices cos i dont want u to get hurt or wad again and not all guys are like what u think they are, people change and so do guys.

Tired day, 2nd last day of work tml.

2008-04-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

Why do i feel so shitty everytime when i have to do billing and payments for the household?

Why do i have to bear all the blame whenever i forget a small thing?

Why can't i be like any other child in the family who dont have to fret so much over family stuffs?

Why can't i have someone by my side who really understands me?

I know im the oldest in the family and i have to do this job because my dad is not in sg often, i wish my brother will help remind me at times in case i really forget. Those hefty fines for overdue payment is really robbing people in broad daylight. I also want a nice happy family where minimal troubles, my dad's health is not very good and so is my mum's. Then my grandparents' health recently also start to deteriorate and my mum and aunt have to keep taking care of them.

Attachment is ending in 4 days time, needa rush all my work. Just today i feel like i caused Dave to be scolded by Mr Tan because of calibration. But with Mr Tan's expectation, really, nothing can be done in 1 try unless it's really perfect.

I should just go face somewhere where there is no other people and release everything from my heart. Once and forall so that i will really feel much more relaxed in and out.

Today went for bowling training at GG after work, before that pass jie back her phone as she left it at my place ytd when fetching baby davin home. Boy he looks so adorable!

Then at training, just bowling as usual, hit a 198 first game. then after that, stunts and i threw my bowling ball 2metres into the air and watch it drop to the ground. Sigh, luckily no crack or whatsoever, was planning to play a prank on sihui only, then who knows i accidentally released the ball out of my ball :/

That's all ba, after that went dinner with xl and sihui then chatted abit then went home and sihui, cheer up lah, dont keep thinking abt that matter liao and be happy! :)

2008-04-05T04:09:00.000+08:00

Bought myself an NDSL after much hesitation. Kept on, "Psp or NDSL?"

Think until i sian, then i used to have Psp but sold it away so i think try ndsl. no harm anyway

Don't like then resell it again. Then it happened that jiong yi wanted to sell his, haha so i bought it from him. $210. still okay i think.

Tried Legend of Zelda : Phantom hourglass, cool game. using stylus 99% of the time.
Abit different from Psp liao.

ITP got pay! :D
i work hard for it, stupid video job ._.

i think i spent $600 liao. gosh.

$300+ on Gravity Shift
now $200+ on ndsl and my food money.

I just realise, i eat like a monster. LOL

my appetite just seems to get bigger and bigger. Bad or Good? I just wanna get bigger in size..

Just ytd, comparing with a colleague who's about same height as me 1.7m
then we were talking abt bmi stuff. Mine was near 23 liao cos 66kg. then he was only 65kg with a belly! LOL

ok im not bad, just stating facts only :X

Cmon, i dont wanna grow heavier only, taller please? haha. Im not greedy, 175 will do :)

Damn sian now. 4.16am can't slp

I begin to think of those stuffs again, again i feel that i cannot understand my feelings. sigh.
I dont know why after reading everytime i feel that im foolish to do such stuffs. Maybe i should just let it all go. I hung on with a hope, till i gave up on it but i still hung on.

Till now, i still dont know the answer to this yet. I just want someone special to understand me and be there whenever i need her.

I'll wait for that day to come when my Miss Right will come..

That's all bah.

Going to slp soon.

2008-04-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

1st April, April Fool's day.

No one pranked me today thou, another day at work, slept at least 3 hours at work today..

after that went to trade my graphics card and go sls buy uv led fans.

now my com looks much nicer :)

2008-04-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

10th last day at work, im beginning to think i'll miss the people there more and more as i countdown. Even the aunty who works there as a cleaner is friendly, just had a nice chat with her today at the pantry :)

After that slacked around as my boss is in holland for a seminar talk, wont be back until next Monday. Anw after that went for training at SPGG, shiok!

Betted drinks with Eleanor and Sihui for a 3 game series again.

This time, my scores surprised me, bowled my 2nd ever 200+ games in my life + my 1st clean game ever and highest 3 game series average, Im a happy man now! LOL

Then Biondi bowled a 150+ Average for 3 games, constant and good. yea man we rawk together! :)

Scores!

1st game:

2nd:

Overall:

Forgotten to take the 3rd game score, anw 137 only.

:/

Tml's my 9th last day at Vopak Penjuru Terminal! :(

Countdown!

2008-03-30T04:45:00.000+08:00

4.44am, bored. can't slp.

went to SPGG to bowl earlier on. had fun, played 3 game series with xl dal and bio.

me, xl and dal bet over drinks again. this is where the excitement comes. lol

bowled a 166,145,170.. free drinks :)

thanks xl..LOL

then went to supper with lester, sh and xl at some place near nus.

had prata.. then after that lester sent me home.. if not have to take cab liao -_-

now, got bored again. decided to go fridge take a bottle of barcadi breeze and drink.

that's all.

think i'll stone for a while more b4 slping ._.

2008-03-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

Got bored, decided to take one of the alcoholic drinks in the fridge.

first time drinking this, all along barcadi breezers. nothing special.

used to rmb my mum telling me drinking this will make me slp more soundly. LOL

MC today again, needed to rest, flu for past week + cough. sianned.

tml, bowl. yes. my love.

2008-03-26T01:29:00.001+08:00

Finally done my first video voice narration recording today with Nora. wonderful.

load off my mind now, tml gonna show the boss then i'm done with it. damn

Boiler Video here i come baby, cos i dont know how to even start doing it.

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Just today, I realize I don't know how to face my feelings.

Weird isn't it. I always feel lost whenever i face it.

Humans are silly, i agree with this.

I used to have things that I've always wished for but I'll never realize and treasure that until it's gone.

Sigh, Life is full of ups and downs. How i wish i can face the sea and shout all the problems kept inside me all this while.

Family stuff + my feelings + work frustration

Everything out and away with the air in the breeze along the seaside.

I'll try to find a chance and do this, think I'll feel better after that.

Blart.

2008-03-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

damn. i think im obsessed with the word "Blart." now

For some reason it came into my mind and it stayed there.

oh yah, Fcuk the attachment task now.

i feel so like F-ing the task, im left with 14 days and 2 videos to go.

HIGH DAO BAN SI baby.

im ready to be cooked in nice hot soup on 11th April.

2008-03-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

i feel weird and down for some reason..

2008-03-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

Went to GG bowl today, bored at home.

dalbert was telling me how to turn lift the ball, hope i can train hard on it then pol-ite here i come!

XD

For the first time i hit above 200 in my life. LOL damn happy just now.

2008-03-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

i had this feeling in me, i know we were somehow chatting happily.

and for a sudden, i feel lost without you.

was things actually that bad?

2008-03-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

today stoned at work practically the whole day, and during which i dont know why did i sms u that which made u think elsewise :/

even till now, im still pondering over it. sigh, i just hope it doesn't cause any misunderstanding thou

every step i take, has an end result.

no matter how i do it, i still have to face it.

because i fight for wad i want.

nothing in the world comes free.

like there's saying,

there's no free meal in the world.

Stan

2008-03-13T22:11:00.001+08:00

Glad's my boss is at least abit happy now. he was smiling and joking abit with me while watching the 6th edit of the video!

tml 7th edit. change font of whole video -_-
change boxing layout, add in new photos

let's hope it'll be 90% done tml!

like i was telling roger today, he want edit 10 times! perfect 10 LOL

2008-03-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

Just why do i have to get an ITP which does video editting, for god's sake cos i seriously hate it now. Im not a media student yet you expect a good and comprehensive video from me, thank god i nv voice back my opinions cos it's my attachment. zz i just have no choice but to do the video -_-

Do once, not happy yet, keep telling me can improve.
twice, tell me same thing
third time, i endure
fourth time, u wanna make a professional and comprehensive video which takes hell lot of work
5th time, im exploding soon.

now u say im behind schedule, why dont u damn do it urself? looking and u think it's easy.

ZZ, damn pissed with my itp. Love the place/colleagues, hate the work.

2008-03-12T01:25:00.000+08:00

sian, im really sick of attachments now.

i can't wait for it to end, but at the same time i think i'll miss my colleagues, even though it's a short 2 months with them only :/

and damn it, now i need to edit the bloody video for the god damn 5th time which pissed the hell out of me. ZzZz,

why dont they hire a damn professional video editter to do the job? zz

get student cos cheap labour, blah blah. total crap.

now i dread attachments. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2008-03-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sat, supposed to go MS for training, cabbed down. damn royston was late. sian

end up, do stock taking for him cos new stocks arrived, got a new shirt and a free lunch meal from roy :)

after that cabbed back to spgg with bio, bowled again.
turn-lift, sounds simple but why cant i do it?

:/ can lift cannot turn. this sucks.

then dalbert was talking abt buying a com, suggested i assemble 1 for him, then next day, go it show hoot 9600gt for myself while he hoot 8800gt 1gb super+
On the way helped ryan hoot Seagate Freeagent pro 500GB and kingston 2GB micro-sd for his sis

Damn worth it!

Then headed back to sls, hoot the rest of the stuffs, then go back his place in punggol -_-
far can, then assembled finish, had dinner with ryan and dal.

Went home afetr that, tired.

Pictures of my hoot! :D

Size of my new card against the old one O_O

2008-03-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

end of 4 week of itp.

5 more weeks to go, time will fly i know :D

MC today, first MC of attachment, think of it. song 3 straight days no work, just love it

itp blues as usual, my boss gave me hell for the past 2 weeks asking me to edit and edit and edit the damn VEC video. VEC (Vapour Emission Control) System video.

from a short 4 min operation clip to a 8 min with theory included, now 12 mins with animation.

think after itp im pro in video editting liao. ROFL

sian, soar throat makes my voice sound so sexy LOL

2008-03-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

Update! :)

Got my pay ytd, dont know why short of $21.45 :/

Met up several sec sch classmates, had dinner at fish&co

Had my black pepper stingray, woots!

only 1 pic of the day!

Today:

"supposed" to go training today. -_- royston was late.

end up go buy ball only :)

finally a new ball. tgt with xl, dal and fird

all 4 of us got new ball.

2 RapidFire and 2 GravityShift.

Just love the reaction,

Pics of the day!

My new ball, damage done: hell lot to my pocket

Camwhoring, Damage $0

that's all. damn tired today.

2008-02-27T18:55:00.000+08:00

Forget to update on saturday's event. Spopen bowling competition!

Had lots of fun, looking forward to next year's spopen lol.

just love bowling.

Pictures!:

Bet sihui dont know the turtle was on her head! LOL

Spbowlers Group shot!

Team Sp Artemis!

2008-02-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

Went to air show on sunday with sihui and bio. enjoyed myself even though getting out of the place was horror, morale of the story, dont jump queue while waiting for the coaches.

me and bio and sihui, wanted go cityhall at first then jump to orchard then jump back to another hotel in cityhall then ended up go cityhall. wasted 1 hour for that. took a damn funny pic of a indian mum dunno doing wad to her son.

-_-

Pictures:

That's about all,

As usual STONED during WORK, i even go toilet and sleep on the toiletbowl seat. power right. -_-

then everyday hoping the time will pass faster, quick 5.30pm so i can go off. lol

Then today i doze off at least 10 times during work, crappp. tml will be filming VEC ( Vapour Emission Control System)

jitao is director, i say cut means cut :D LOL

after that go hospital see my grandma, then she told me something funny

Ahma: kit lam ah, DONT SMOKE OKAY
me: i dont smoke wad.
Ahma: JUST DONT SMOKE
me: okok, lol

2008-02-24T02:11:00.001+08:00

Finished spopen, 2nd week of itp

dread itp now. simply can't wait for it to be over.

damn PPE i have to wear during itp. zz, No wonder reynold said i needed quite some time to get used to it. -_-

Spopen, disappointed in myself, doubles block of games esp. bowled like "i dont know wad word to describe" Team block of games, much better, more like my usual self. sianned.

After go pepperlunch for dinner with quite a no. of ppl from club.

then go slack at sing flyer there. song. chatted alot.

took some photos. :D

haha. only xl's expression. rofl

Cmon man, Buck tooth retarded face lah. Me and hui:

2008-02-21T00:54:00.001+08:00

just attempted the test again, im even faster O_O

92 words

Speedtest

2008-02-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

Check out my sexy Personal Protective Equipment at work man. just hate to wear it.

Pic excluding my white sexy overall -_-

Tada!

Gonna wear it tml to the terminal already. SIAN

2008-02-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

Im having ITP blues right now :/

Lazy to wake up in the morning also >.>

I just wanna sleep more, lol

After today, guess i'll settle all my thoughts and i should'nt feel confused about how i feel and stuff, it's like taking a part of me away from what i actually am :/

I can't wait for this saturday's spopen, i just have this feeling i'll do well. haha

2008-02-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

2008-02-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

Back, fell aslp for 15 and a half hours since 830pm ytd till 12 noon today and i was late for spopen!

Rushed there by cab. then reached around 1 pm. walked around for a while then heard from ryan got left over 288 games cos the no. of people who actually registered for it was way below wad we expected. then me bio and cm rushed back to GG take our bowling balls and back to yishun safra again. then bowled till 5pm like that, today i finally saw wad my red zone could do. so nice, when the ball break back into the pocket with a strike :)

Hope i can reproduce this next saturday, then after that put the ball at sihui's place then off to MS with bio to get his spare ball.

After that went to Carl's to eat dinner, damn full. walk around then went back home.

Still feeling tired after so much sleep.

ITP takes your life and time away.

*If only there is someone by my side almost 24/7.

2008-02-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

ytd was val's day. after work wanted just go home. no partner. sad :/

then called xl, it just happened he meeting wj at JE also. then at first they wanted go eat then become watch movie with hf, sharon and jj.

it's been sometime since we went out or even sat down tgt and have a chat. all nv changed much since sec sch days. haha.

some pics! including my cam-whoring during work. rofl.

let's hope next year on the same day i wont be alone :)

2008-02-13T22:15:00.001+08:00

Some Retarded Moments of me in public. rofl.

2008-02-09T18:39:00.001+08:00

i yearn for you.

i want you.

i dont know wad to do.

how i wish someone can help me right now.

sigh.

2008-02-08T20:40:00.001+08:00

regret is the thing i dread the most. nv treasure and regret is something irreversible and hurtful.

cny as usual. nothing to post also. just bored at home.

that's all.

2008-02-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

91 words

Touch Typing

2007-12-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

finally went to bowl today. lol 6 games. HOOK VS SPIN.

results after 2 blocks of games. WE GOT TRASHED a whopping 211 PINS. -_-

jitao Sian half. lol. need to train harder liao.

then after that go support team young spgg for the wednesday league. they did not bad. =)

that's about all for today. i'm finally back to sch but i'm still not my usual self yet. lol

*Thank You for avoiding me today, i know you purposely did so, cos you saw me then u pretend to walk further then turn ur head and see me but nv even BOTHER to wave hi.

Am i that non-existant?

Dont bother to explain urself or o.O? it's useless. disappointment.

t3 pictures

2007-12-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

update! pictures for spb's t3 outing on saturday. although i was not really enjoying myself but i realised i took some pictures there. and for today. didn't managed to go for the corrosion science quiz cos i left halfway to see the doctor again. hopefully i'll get well soon but the pain is really killing me. Sigh.

Pictures:

wad was i doing? o.o

as i needed to find a place to sit :/

then bio comes out with something funny.

then i got pushed around! LOL.

2007-12-09T21:35:00.001+08:00

went to CA's T3 ytd, well the place is indeed very nice.

and went to breeks to have lunch with ryan,elisha,cm,bio,sh and lester. not sure how to spell. :X

then after that headed over to t3 and bought tickets, the sad thing was i was having abdominal pain the whole day ytd which really made me didn't enjoy my trip to t3 very much. ):

didn't manage to take much pictures as i was spending most of my time trying to find a place to sit down. i walk, stomach pain. stand also pain. Sigh.

For the past 2 nights, i could'nt slp at all. every 30 minutes or so, i'll wake up and then go back to slp crawling like a worm on my bed. ):

I've nv experienced so much pain while falling sick before.

and tml there's corrosion science test which i think i'll most probably be unable to attend already. i wonder is there a retest for me? ):

2007-12-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

I HATE LIARS. GET OFF MY LIFE. THEY SUCK!

bloody hell, one minute say this then the other say that. -_-
yaya then give excuses of this and that. all nonsense
creating excuses to save urself from being exposed. save it. it's useless.
face the fact that things you once emphasized so much yet you're not practicing what you preach.
wonderful. liars suck.

blahblah, why do i have to meet liars? and worst of all. they screwed my life. Sigh.

2007-11-26T01:08:00.001+08:00

pol ite is finally over ytd. grats to the moo moo and karen for getting 1st runner up for womens doubles and moo moo, karen, peh sihui and sarah for getting 2nd runner up for womens team event. Although the guys never win anything but you all gave ur best. (:

recently busy with sch work once again, peak period for formal practical reports. ZZZ. Not to forget case study, ZZZ

i think i shouldn't poke my nose into other's matters anymore i should just watch as a spectator and stfu. case solved. :/

2007-11-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

today another mahjong sessions with my usual khakis. LOL. fer,me,sihui and louis. wee. had 2 rounds of mj, first one xiong. all those man tai came out. i won $29 that round alone. ROFL. opps. Sorry sister! didn't mean it.! ><

then after that my dad came back from HK already but heard from him he has to go back before dec 6 for another medical check up. ): although i seldom see him but when i chat with him about stuff i can feel the bond lah. (: then the air tickets cost a bomb again. to and fro hk and sg taking sing airlines $600 SGD. WTF. ZZ damn expensive.

ahh! i crave for mahjong again! WOO!

- I'm tired of all these stuff already, i dont understand why people are like that also at times. I just feel like leaving everything as it is and carry on with life happily. I wanna be a happy person and a good bowler. That's all i want bah. Being a good bowler HERE I COME! =D

2007-11-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

last weekend had fun! steamboat! AHH! then celebrate cm and eugene's bdae with a nice mango cake.! (: then after that MAHJONG. WOOTS.! although i won $1.70 hahaha.

before that. i got caught in action slping -.- GOSH.

And another pic! LOL

upload pics later. stupid blogger problem -.- ZZ

then had a chat with sister, LOL our crap of LOGY.

1. bioLOGY - A study of "piak piak" and dirty stuff and only for people with the blur and evil smile on the face

2. stanLOGY - A study of crap subjects and issues in the world which only happy people are qualified for it ------> hahaha CRAP! :X

3. ashLOGY - A study of funny and lame stuff specialised for people with a turtle mind. HEHE

2007-11-05T01:57:00.000+08:00

well, recently nothing to post also.

had bowling trainings as usual. just love them. bowling is my passion. (:

many things happened recently. if only i have the trust from you that you wont come and suspect me of doing something that is against my usual self. despite knowing me for months and the kind of character i have, will i do such stuff or go to such extent? Sigh. i'm being labelled as a bastard now.. sad to hear that but what to do. that's what people see me in their eyes, a bastard, despite me not doing anything at all. i didn't plan it or even do it and i get such an ending afterall. it pays to be good sometimes. it hurts me to know that people actually see me as a bastard in their eyes. well i can't do anything to change it either.. since that's how people view me, guess i have to live with it.

i'm determined to change for the better from now on, through all the valuable lessons learnt during the recent time. i hope i can get better results also. :/ sigh. last sem's gpa was so bad. ):

one day, i wanna be one of the best bowlers out there. i aim for that.

2007-10-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

I find it very hard to approach you nowadays.

You simply get away by not answering anything at all. The feeling of it sucks. You choose not to sort out your feelings and escape from reality by going into your own world, there's nothing i can do to help you at all if you dont even want to help yourself.

Saying dont know wont help in all situations afterall.

I feel very wierd now, i chose not to give up but afterall i'm still left with no choice. I can wait patiently but it's just that if you're set to sort out your thoughts. I'm sure things will not turn out the way it is now where you dont know what's wrong with you? or how are you feeling?

I say it's fate we meet at a place in school where both you and i dont frequently visit at all but you said it was coincidence. The first time being was i ran back up to the lanshop at Moberly after eating and i saw your sister's backview, i had doubts and i bend down and i saw you, of all times, i saw you the moment you was about to left and i was about to enter the lanshop. You said it was coincidence then it maybe coincidence. I did what i could, i gave my 101% just to win your heart back once again, but without a chance makes everything i told you plain talk without any value or meaning in them.

I was once in front of you, just waiting for you to say yes and place your hand on mine and i'll guide you through this new journey of our's. but i doubt i had the chance to do so. For you, i'll change every single thing you once disliked but i guess i dont have the chance to shower my love on you. I hope you'll live happily and fulfil all those goals you once told me you would like to achieve.

2007-10-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

Well, last weekend i had my first training under Sam Goh on saturday morning at marina square, it was tough but fun! I must really practise hard my steps and finish posture man, it looks damn bad now. ): After that, my muscle hurts like shit, my arms and my left thigh. Long time never had such intense training liao. LOL

Yesterday, had training at spgg as usual. I look forward to every monday cos i get to have alot of fun during trainings. LOL. like doing stupid stuff and most imptly of all, i get to practise my steps and finishing posture. Guess my 4th and last step, the sliding still got problem, i still end up abit from the lane :/ Then after training, we decided to play our doubles challenge cos wednesday i got make up practical at 3pm for corrosion science and my 2 sister have team training. Jiayou for both of them! Hope they hit their 1.2k pinfall target soon! We played a series of 4 games. Sihui and Fer, Me and Xl, Cm and Bio. I broke my own high score record of 193 set last year in june throwing straight ball. lol. this time i did it with hook. Although, i used my old method of bowling, but it works lah. Nvm i'll start training the proper Textbook style.! :/

Some pictures of the scores we played yesterday:

1st game:

Look at Wugui's score 188 OMT and fer same as me lol!

Mine sucked thou, 110 only. Sigh. Look at my 2nd one!

2nd Game:

Wugui's 2nd game, totally ownage man 176 -.-

Finally! 195! MUAHAHAH

Cm & Bio's 2nd game.

3rd Game:

Last game:

Lol, my last game sucked. Tired liao. :/

Had lots of fun yesterday.! Tml got make up corrosion science prac at 3pm. After that go watch my 2 sisters for their team training then after that STCOB outing! Dinner! muahaha.! Lookingto have fun tml!

Blog till here. Picture intensive post! haha.

*Fer & Sihui Jiayou! You all can do it for pol-ite one! (:

2007-10-19T02:06:00.000+08:00

This few days had alot of fun with my S,T,C,O,B gang lah. ROFL.

Super Turtle Cheese Octopus Balls! LOL. When i first read the name i nearly peng lah -.-

ok ytd first outing as a gang, went steamboat at dunno what happy pay or day or whatever restaurant, i just cnt rmb the name of the damn place .______. OH YAH, just nice that day was my PAYDAY LAH. ROFLROFL!

Lots of hilarious things happened during the steamboat lah, like noobshit, who keep banging her head onto the back of the seat whenever laughing. jitao funny until :X MUAHAHA then until once a meatball damn dropped under her pants and she scared dunno what lah. then the reaction so big, i just tried to stop her from hitting the drinks and spilling it onto the seats, guess what? BANG HEAD LAH. ROFL man. till i blur, then i only know everything was funny, funny and funny. SIHUI EVEN VOMIT HER FOOD OUT PLEASE. -.- WTH. noobshit was like saying, eh got the URRP! sound. LOL then off sihui goes to the toilet. Haha, Never seen such a thing happened before lah. The whole dinner was funny lah, i think instead of eating steamboat until full, i laughed until i became full lah WTH. -.-

Us at the steamboat restaurant!

Matthew summore take alot of meatballs starting, put at a bowl. Noobshit jitao POUR INTO THE TOMYUM SOUP WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PORK FREE LAH! LOL. SHE TOO HIGH LIAO. then nvm, say not enough, that Matthew go take the whole thing from the table and pour all into the soup until our soup chaota or what needa change -.- and not to forget the ratio of my drinks to noobshit's 12:2 WTF man. i ended up going to the toilet so many times. Matt summore say they refilled the drink tank! LOL MAN. :X

On the way to poolfusion de time: noobshit,ME,wugui!

Then off we went to play pool at poolfusion, then play play play until 11.30++ then GG had to take cab. worst of all, all those NB cab. all put on call dunno for what shit. WORST OF ALL, those green lighted ones, pretend never see u. Then ming got so pissed that he threw a can on the floor or what lah. :/ then end up bi yong di and ming boarded the cab first then me,noobshit,wugui and "yousoft" boarded another one. Went to yishun,sembawang,admiralty then to boon lay. Guess what, cab fare $37 + midnight charge! @#$@#%@^ ZZZZ

Then today morning, shucks man. overslept. i let my classmates down lah. keep late late. end up monday i have no choice but to pon BIA just to attend the makeup Environmental studies A practical. ZZZ waste my time. Then today pon last lesson to go MS with noobshit and wugui cos wugui wanted to get her wallet from Guess, then after that accompany her to get the voucher from royal sporting house as gift for her friend's bdae. then after that went to bowling alley. then i bought another ball. 3 balls now! LOL. I just simply love this ball can? GREEN! WOO.

GREEN! =D

BOWLED A DAMN 300 can on my first game with this ball. LOL SPARE BALL OWNS LAH. MUAHAHAHA, BEAT THAT BABY!

I rock please! 300! FTW!

After that stayed at Royston's shop until 11 or what, at first to teach me how to relax so that i can release a oval thumb grip :/ It's a total new thing lah, so i needed sometime to adjust and i was really nervous and not relaxed lah! ZZ. Then after that wait for cab at taxi stand, ZZ wonder how come all SG cab drivers that f-up, near 12am, they go drive and hide from the main road. once strike 12am, all come out. Else they put on call and siam. heng i managed to board the last train back to Boon lay. That's all for today bah. (:

Really enjoyed myself this few days, thanks S.T.C.O.B for the laughter you brought to me. I love you guys! LOL i sound so gay. (:

*and not to forget Yusof, Eleanore and Matthew! (:

2007-10-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

back from bowling training today, yea 2 balls finally. but still love my old ball. got feelings with it haha. the new one the finger grip abit tight :/

then after that go clementi mac slack with fer,sihui,ming,bio,xl and genli. chatted quite alot of stuff. then sihui keep raising her hand and ask the same question.! lol! then after that took mrt home le. will upload pics of the pins we brought home from spgg today. haha!

Just read her blog, i will love her for who she is, no matter what she is. I'll just wait till she's ready to be in a r/s again. I wont let her go away from my hands again. Treasure and not regret this time!

2007-10-14T18:41:00.000+08:00

back after a day spent slping at matt's place.

Ytd, woke up only at 12.30pm where i was supposed to meet cm,bio and josh at cityhall mrt. hurried up changed and go out to meet them at marina square bowling alley. Then went into royston's shop where cm bought his storm shift and bio got his storm surefire. both ball looks nice. forget take pic! then after that we went parkway eat dinner b4 cm's mum gave us a lift to katong shopping centre then we walked to H.I.G.H to play lan until 1am+. quite long. then went to eat supper before going to matt's place to sleep.

Matt's place is BIG!

Then it's gonna be 1 month ever since my life has been empty without her. I just miss her so much, sigh. It's gonna be hard but i wont give up. Time just flies, and the last time i blogged about this issue was when it was 10 days after the thing happened. ):

Pictures of my Risk game on friday with classmates.!

Grey is me and so is yellow. muahahah didnt have enough troops so i took yellow to cover up for it. My first risk victory! I owned Africa, South America, 3/4 of North America, 3/4 of Europe with 200++ troops.

2007-10-13T00:39:00.001+08:00

today as normal. missed first 2 lessons cos overslept. sigh man.

i'll wait patiently i guess, i wont let it go from my hands once more.

i'll fight for my own happiness. just waiting for something to come back ):

that's all for today. post pics of my risk global domination tml!

2007-10-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

i'm back from orchard today. haha! went orchard with matt,bio and ming today after sch. they went first cos i ended only at 6pm -.- horrible timetable. then met them at topman at wisma where i saw them playing with the com, damn funny lah of what the mac com can edit those pics. i took 2 pics! this one is damn funny! see my face.!

After that matt ask me take one more, kissing myself. rofl. this was funny man.

haha, i had alot of fun today lah. lol. after that we went to p-centre to play lan ah. bnet. we owned both rounds. hahaha. then after that went home. very tired. slpt all e way till boon lay where a kind lady woke me up. :/

*Many times, there are so many things i wanna say to you like how i really feel, but i dont think i have to right to comment. ):

Like i'm jealous when you talk on the phone with another guy now. Hais.

I really miss you alot. ):

2007-10-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

today was a short day in sch, 3 hours only. 9-12. best day of e week! haha. then after lesson went to cafe@moberly for lunch with classmates. Then Board Games! woots man. until 3pm where brandon and most of them went for the overseas itp talk. too expensive for me to go le. guess have to stay local. :/

then after that i went to mob slack slack then go eat. then after eat le. when i go back mob. i saw her sis at first. but i wasn't sure whether it's her then i look carefully.! omg.! it's her. i'm very happy to see her again cos i missed her alot. Sigh. then i went back to mob sit down and watch they all play dota iron man awhile then i went out again, she was not there le. then jacky,jw,xinyu had bball competition at bball court. then went down to see them play, then i saw her again, this time leaving mob. so fast. ): but just for that short while, i'm contented. then i head to bball court to see for a while then sian liao. go back mob play dota with zirong,joe they all. then play until night then cab home with jw,joe and swee. long day tml. 8-6pm ):

*I believe fate will bring us once together again, i'll always be waiting for you to come back my side.

2007-10-10T00:31:00.000+08:00

Today, sch ended at 4. earlier than the rest of the days except wed. then went to spgg to meet ming and bio tgt then i go and see my ball and how to mend it. so it's settled. monday i'll have 2 balls! yea. (:
then after that went to fc4 to eat with ming and bio. then after that feeling very sleepy so i decided to take 185 home. then who knows i slp and slp on the bus till i overslept and ended up somewhere i've nv been to at jurong west. i crossed the road and walked into the estates and realise i'm walking 1 big round. sigh. then finally i see a familiar building! the boys' home. then i walked for another 20-30 mins before reaching home. and that sucks man. damn tired. today. 2 pics of where i've been today. LOL!

pic of the background where i'm lost, standing on the big empty field -.-

Pic of the long stretch of alley beside the boys' home, give the creepy feeling.
blog till here for today.

It's always u're gone then i've realise the importance of you.

2007-10-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

Back from training, ended quite late today. near 9 perhaps then drag drag, then decide go clementi eat dinner with biondi, josh, sihui and darren. Josh left first cos his mum come fetch him, then the rest of us continue chatting about stuff until 11+. lol. so late then take 99 home. i slept on the bus. so boring -.-

Today training learnt and chat session, i learnt alot of stuff lah. :/ Woots! Tml replug ball + mend my old one. 2 balls! (:

post again tml.

2007-10-07T01:45:00.001+08:00

i'm going to change for the better perhaps.

it's over.

2007-10-06T21:33:00.001+08:00

Well, 2nd week of sch has ended. Recently alot of things happening around me. Kinda made me sad in many ways.

Never ever regret if you never treasure something that was once in your possession. I paid a dear price for this mistake i've made that made me become quite sensitive in whatever i do nowadays.

I'm Afraid to make the same mistakes over again and then i'll end up regretting when things are too late. Things around us change all the time, so do people. First up, my cca. SPIM club. sigh. things are quite messy now. i'm just trying my best to do something as my part of MC. i cant sit back and watch things as it is now. if this is the case, then i guess SPIM sooner or later will have big problems. We dont have high response from year 1s. CCA drive not going well as supposed it was to be, the interaction camp that was supposed to held for mainly year 1s and newly joined members to get to know each other better also kinda failed i guess. I dont know what to do already. Putting up notices at the lanshop counter that we're recruiting but no one seems to care to read it or even ask questions about it. MCs not doing duty at lanshop counter also. even our own people dont care. WHY! Never will i let SPIM fall as long as i'm in the MC. It's stressing and sad to know such a situation like this. Sigh. I wish a miracle will happen that will make things so smoothly the way it's planned to be.

Me and Joe was speaking about this situation and we both are stressed, dont know what to do now already. We're racking our brains trying to think of different ways to do stuff, but with only the few of us caring about what's happening? What's the rest doing about this? I hope that the rest of the MCs know the situation of SPIM now and do something about it to help the club. Busy may be the reason but i really hope to see all of us do something and help recruit newly year1s. Imagine next year when we step down from the club, then no new substitutes? GGified man.

Sigh. I dont wish to think too much already, it's tiring. :/

2007-10-06T21:21:00.001+08:00

testing. (: